#Once in a while

Sometimes you crawl into bed at 10:30PM and are super proud of everything you have accomplished during the day, and are excited for a good night's rest.

Sometimes you watch power rangers on netflix from 10:30 until 11:00 when you finally fall asleep.

Sometimes you accidentally wake up at 2:30 in the morning because you had a bad dream.

Sometimes when you wake up at 2:30 in the morning you get up to pee because you think maybe if you relieve your bladder you will be able to sleep.

Sometimes when you're up to pee at 2:30 in the morning you turn on the bathroom light because you would fall on your face if you didn't.

Sometimes you get back into bed after your 2:30 AM pee and regret every decision you made up until that point because now you are wide awake.

Sometimes after you are wide awake from your 2:30 AM pee you send messages to all the people who messaged you while you were sleeping.

Sometimes after you message people at 2:30 in the morning you get bored of waiting for a response so you start watching more power rangers on netflix.

Sometimes after 4 episodes of power rangers you realize you are literally watching the exact same story line over and over and decide to watch a movie.

Sometimes while browsing for movie you come across a different TV show called life unexpected and decide to try it out.

Sometimes after watching 3 episodes of life unexpected - which turned out to be a terrible show with lots of good looking people - your alarm goes off and angrily tells you it's time to get up for school.

Sometimes after getting up and getting ready for school you look out the window and see a fresh blanket of snow on the ground and think "Teehee! Winter's here!"

Sometimes after getting in your car to go to school you drive for half an hour just to make it 3 block from your house.

Sometimes you just have to say "Screw this day" turn around, go home, nap, drink tea, eat grilled cheese, and do some 'independent reading'.

Today just happened to be one of those days.

Jan 10:Day 10 - my day was just described up there. In my blog post. Right there! #soberjanuary #obivouslyobvious

#My Christmas Wish

I know this is a day late, but who blogs on Christmas?

This year my family and I have lost SO MUCH and this Christmas was extremely hard to get through.

But we got through it.

This year we were blessed by someone or someones doing the 12 Days of Christmas for our family. Nobody asked them to. We didn't expect anything like it, but it was there. On our doorstep. For 12 consecutive mornings. I want everyone to know it was greatly appreciated. And it warmed my heart all the way to the chilly little apex.

This year we didn't get a tree up until days before Christmas. The usual Christmas music blaring through the house was muted until the eve. And the lights never went up on the rooftop.

This year we struggled to get through what used to be the best time of the year. 

This year I learned who I can count on to be there through everything. Who pulls through during the hardest of times. And which friendships don't waver at the first sign of trouble.

This year I grew as a person, I grew into myself. I stopped defining myself by the people around me and discovered who I am. I continued my growth in my relationship with my God, and realized I am called to be a lover of people.

And so my Christmas wish this year is that everyone is safe. Everyone takes life one day at a time. Everyone takes a break from the commercialism of western society and takes the time to appreciate the gifts they are blessed with. I pray that everyone stays healthy. That we may all know forgiveness. And that this next year is filled with love, tenderness, humility, understanding, relationships, opportunities, happiness, growth, and faith. 

That is my Christmas wish for everyone. Merry Christmas one day late, and whoever you are, know that I love you.

#Colder Weather

Winter is my favourite.

Kind of.

Well....right after summer....and spring....and autumn.

I know what you're thinking. "Um. Rye. That means winter is your least favourite."

No. No it does not, good reader. It just means that winter is my fourth favourite season.

I still love it. Just not quite as much as the others. But that does not mean I don't love it. Because I do. I'll tell you why.

I love the snow....when it's still white and pretty. Not when it's brown and slushy.

I love skating...it's my favourite date ever. There's something so supremely cute about holding hands and skating. And drinking tea. And having cold noses, and hot kisses.

I love the lights....the Christmas lights up all around the city. Making otherwise bland cookie cutter suburban houses sparkly and glittery and pretty. Setting the one apartment balcony apart from the rest. Brightening up an otherwise dark city.

And with that I love zoo lights....even though they're the same every year. I just love them so much. Too much, even.

I love mittens....especially when they're animals. I have elephant and shark mittens. My elephants are married and they kiss at red lights. My sharks are best friends and do not kiss at red lights. They just munch on my steering wheel.

I love boots....and shuffling my feet when I'm in boots. And having toasty toesies! I also love fuzzy socks inside my boots. Except I get sweaty very very hot toesies when I have fuzzy socks AND boots on.

I love fireplaces....and the smell and heat and look of fireplaces. I could stare into the fireplace for hours.

I love Christmas....because God loved us all so much that He came to earth so that we could know Him as a person and have a real relationship with Him. He humbled Himself in the ultimate way, and for that I am forever thankful.

I love Christmas music....and Christmas movies, and Christmas decorations, and Christmas trees. And pretty much just Christmas. This could have gone under the last one.

I love turkey dinners....this is the last one not the last one about Christmas....I will give you a bit of a break though!

I love tea....I love tea always. Like every single night of the year. But especially in the winter because it warms my belly from the inside out. Big thanks to my Auntie for giving me delicious Holiday Tea last week. It is the epitome of winter tea.

I love hockey....just kidding.

I love ugly sweaters....for real though. They're the best. And they're warm! Who cares if they're ugly, seriously.

I love mugs....to drink my tea out of. Once again, I love this one all the time, but I especially love it in the winter.

I love layering clothes....cause it hide everything I want to hide, and it always makes me feel pretty!

I love New Years....and the chance to start something new. And set myself up for failure by setting resolutions I know I could never keep. Maybe I'll rethink that this year..

I love having a break from school....because even though I love school it stresses me out. And everyone can use a break sometimes.

I love hot dates....on cold days

I love making snow angels....and snow men. And snow forts. And snow balls. Then throwing those snowballs at people and hiding behind my snow fort and letting my snow men and snow angels keep guard.

I love watching snow storms outside....but only if I'm at home and I don't have to go anywhere.

I love television holiday specials.... mostly Community. Pure. Gold.

I love going on outdoor winter adventures....and I really wanna go to the ice caves in Kananaskis. Someone please go on this adventure with me! Like, now.

I love sunny days....and the way the sunshine and brightness contrasts the cold biting air.

I love volunteering....and making someone's day brighter and warmer. Directly or indirectly.

I love winter colours....White and blue and silver and grey. They just always look so good!

I love quality time with family....immediate and extended. Because my family makes me who I am.

I love naked trees....snow kissed naked trees. 

I love red Starbucks cups....because that's when you know it's really winter (ps. has anyone else noticed how coffee has transitioned from being a beverage to an accessory? I'm not cool because I don't really drink coffee)

I love work Christmas parties....especially if there is an open bar.

I love my brother and sister....who were both born in the winter. December to be exact. 5 days short of a year apart.

I love winter.....it's just soqw,,,,,,,,............................rrrrrrrrrrttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt<------Thank you Kinjo, for your input on my blog post.

Take Two.

I love winter....it's just so peaceful and sweet. I love how clean everything looks right after it snows. And I love the way everything just hides under a blanket while it's still chilly, only to come out new and refreshed in the spring. So that's why I love winter, my fourth favourite season. Sigh.

However I do not love driving, or freezing, or static-y hair. Also, Valentine's Day. I know I sound like a bitter single, but I've always thought it was stupid, even when I had a boyfriend to share it with. But look at how much stuff I do love!! There's no way I can't look on the bright side for the 10 month winter that's just settling in now :)

#You Can Put It In My Video

Today someone called me a 'sexy beast'.

And it completely took me by surprise. I haven't been called that since...high school.

'Sexy Beast.'

It doesn't sound very pleasant to me.

And it's definitely not when I think of when I think of me.

When I think of 'sexy' I think of:

- long hair

- lingerie

- dancing

- rockin' bod

- petite

When I think of 'beast' I think of:

- hairy

- fangs

- claws

- angry

- huge

There are a couple contradicting items on my lists. Hm.

Let's see how I do on this list of beastliness

- hairy - I am for an asian!

- fangs - not too out of control.

- claws - kind of. Enough to be a safety hazard I guess.

- angry - rarely. 

- huge - that's a matter of perspective.

Okay - so I didn't do too bad on the beast side let's look at the sexy side!

- long hair - check. 

- lingerie - I wear underpants. Their rank of sexiness is yet to be determined.

- dancing - hip hop abs. check.

- rockin' bod - it's hiding under there somewhere..

- petite - this, again, is a matter of perspective. But I'm asian sooo...

Alright, so maybe not so much of the sexy over here.

Here is my defence - winter is coming and hair/fat keep you warm. I don't want it to go away until the spring. Then we'll work on my beast-y half.

Final verdict on the accuracy of the title: 65%

#The Upside of Being Down

Every cloud has a silver lining......or something like that.

I'm not good with all those fancy pretty dressed up quotey things.

Idioms. Or cliché's. 

But your life seriously is a trillion and one times better when you look at the bright side.

Here! I'll show you!

Hour and a half commute to school today

- got to listen to the new Childish Gambino CD 1.5 times. 

                     - crush on Donald Glover was exponentially heightened from                                   engaging in this activity.

- drank tropical fruity tea from Hawaii that reminded me of warmer days.

- was blowing the heater in my car on my face pretending it was a warm wind, and I was laying on the beach with a Mai Tai in my hand.

There are a million trillion projects due for school in the next 3 weeks

- I get to colour code A LOT of things

- I get to go Christmas shopping on my study breaks.

- Christmas break is exactly 18 sleeps away.

- Next semester consists of cuddling babies and taking care of children.

-20 degree high for today

- Hot dates are prefect for cold days!

- high of +9 by next Tuesday.

- Cold makes me appreciate the warm more.

- I absolutely do not need to worry about my bikini body right now.

Seeeeee!!! Everything is so much better when you look at the bright side!

So smile today! Cause someone, somewhere loves you.